Crossroad

Crossroads

Thousand days have passed,

thousand stares at the mirror

mulling over the roads

one brittle the other a rock

Couldn't one have both?

Perhaps time for a wise thinking

perhaps what is loved is never loved

and what is dulled is never dulled

the heart wonder,

over the road not taken

would mother and father be any other?

would the common worry disappeared?

As time crawls by

diluted in the rocky dry road,

as comforted as the molds on the frames

one still wonders,

over the crossroads

I do not think I will regret choosing this rocky road

at least time will tell.

it is only to the time to answer

nothing else

funny

Do you remember?

our first meeting was a lie

you were innocent while I was everything but an innocent man

funny how you believed me,

funnier how I believed you believed me

two years has passed,

traces of the meeting lingers like an accident would

not with blood stains but with smiles

I feel like a father some times,

holding your hand and giving you directions

although they are only mere speakers that are never followed

Its still funny,

how you know everything about me

while I only know what I can see

funny,

how I kill you with my standards

while you kill me with your emotions

funny,

how we find the common enemy

despite such differences,

funny how I still lie to you despite these years

numbers have never been important,

since we shared the same passion

funny how those number only makes sense when we are around each other

If my depart comes, then its going to funnier

that we are still friends despite thousands of mile

funnier that your choices are always so stupid

its the funniest when we are friends

despite we are different

Funny.

dedicated to the best friend

SS

Glimpses

It has been quite some time

since I have mourned my pretense

thinking that you would be the one

crying in jealousy ,dying in sleep

Its sad to know that you would never know

more, that I am scared that you would know

I still have glimpses of you

at least, its no longer a picture

but mere memories.

Angel

I hate this love song

It was bad

Maths was everything but good. I panicked in the exam, forgot my formula and left out few questions each carrying out 10 marks. I am practically severely doomed. Forget an A* I am hoping for luck to grant me at least an A. I am severely devastated and depressed. My ego cant take such mistakes.

I look at my tutee Farzana who is happy with whatever she does, and I learn to appreciate what I have. Perhaps its god's way of telling me, you should major in something Mathematics in life so that you can feel satisfied. or even its god's way of telling me that you know you mathematical ability limits now, so plan wisely.

Either way, I quote my best friend shangkaree "You are one of those people who no matter what ends up getting the best of life". So the question is, do you trust God enough to not worry?

I recieved an Insipirational mail by Naqiah today, one example include. "I dont get mad when my husband is a couch potato, at least he is with me". "I dont get mad when the lawn isnt mowed at least I have a house". I dont care whether my maths was screwed up, at least I have the chance to study.

Bhagavad Gita

"Neither in this world nor elsewhere is there any happiness in store for him who always doubts."

Om shakti Karumari.

Maths

Tommorow is my P3 exam and god know how scared am I.

Of course, getting an A should be okay, but its the A* that we are competing for.

Biggest fear:

I turn scared, panic, angry because I cant answer the question

They lump one question into 12 marks and expect you to solve without any sub questions

Most importantly, doing careless mistakes

Strategy

1. avoid all prove questions untill last seconds of the paper

2. do all the questions that have sub questions first

3. check it right the first time

Hopes: I want my bloody A*!

The sun

Everyone loves you,

for your beauty, for your wealth even for your character

I loved you for your heart

I have know you for such a short time,

it really does seem like eternity

I can understand words even before you say them

I can picture hearing your voice even when I am alone

You make me a real man when I am with you

Deep down, i always knew its never going to work

most importantly, i was afraid

risking what we had for something that only could

you are far too precious to be gambled away

I remained silent because I needed you more than you ever know

Perhaps that is my mistake,

silence is not golden after all

typing this, i feel weaker than ever

realizing that you will never be mine

I am happy you found someone else,

someone that makes you heart feel warm

I am happy because I know of that your someone

You will be happy with him I am sure

I shall see you from far

Just like how I see the sun

for you are my very first,

I hope I meet someone like you

that way I can be with you

even when you never knew how i felt of you.

Your truly,

Lord Denning