funny

Do you remember?

our first meeting was a lie

you were innocent while I was everything but an innocent man

funny how you believed me,

funnier how I believed you believed me

two years has passed,

traces of the meeting lingers like an accident would

not with blood stains but with smiles

I feel like a father some times,

holding your hand and giving you directions

although they are only mere speakers that are never followed

Its still funny,

how you know everything about me

while I only know what I can see

funny,

how I kill you with my standards

while you kill me with your emotions

funny,

how we find the common enemy

despite such differences,

funny how I still lie to you despite these years

numbers have never been important,

since we shared the same passion

funny how those number only makes sense when we are around each other

If my depart comes, then its going to funnier

that we are still friends despite thousands of mile

funnier that your choices are always so stupid

its the funniest when we are friends

despite we are different

Funny.

dedicated to the best friend

SS

Glimpses

It has been quite some time

since I have mourned my pretense

thinking that you would be the one

crying in jealousy ,dying in sleep

Its sad to know that you would never know

more, that I am scared that you would know

I still have glimpses of you

at least, its no longer a picture

but mere memories.

Angel

I hate this love song

It was bad

Maths was everything but good. I panicked in the exam, forgot my formula and left out few questions each carrying out 10 marks. I am practically severely doomed. Forget an A* I am hoping for luck to grant me at least an A. I am severely devastated and depressed. My ego cant take such mistakes.

I look at my tutee Farzana who is happy with whatever she does, and I learn to appreciate what I have. Perhaps its god's way of telling me, you should major in something Mathematics in life so that you can feel satisfied. or even its god's way of telling me that you know you mathematical ability limits now, so plan wisely.

Either way, I quote my best friend shangkaree "You are one of those people who no matter what ends up getting the best of life". So the question is, do you trust God enough to not worry?

I recieved an Insipirational mail by Naqiah today, one example include. "I dont get mad when my husband is a couch potato, at least he is with me". "I dont get mad when the lawn isnt mowed at least I have a house". I dont care whether my maths was screwed up, at least I have the chance to study.

Bhagavad Gita

"Neither in this world nor elsewhere is there any happiness in store for him who always doubts."

Om shakti Karumari.

Maths

Tommorow is my P3 exam and god know how scared am I.

Of course, getting an A should be okay, but its the A* that we are competing for.

Biggest fear:

I turn scared, panic, angry because I cant answer the question

They lump one question into 12 marks and expect you to solve without any sub questions

Most importantly, doing careless mistakes

Strategy

1. avoid all prove questions untill last seconds of the paper

2. do all the questions that have sub questions first

3. check it right the first time

Hopes: I want my bloody A*!

The sun

Everyone loves you,

for your beauty, for your wealth even for your character

I loved you for your heart

I have know you for such a short time,

it really does seem like eternity

I can understand words even before you say them

I can picture hearing your voice even when I am alone

You make me a real man when I am with you

Deep down, i always knew its never going to work

most importantly, i was afraid

risking what we had for something that only could

you are far too precious to be gambled away

I remained silent because I needed you more than you ever know

Perhaps that is my mistake,

silence is not golden after all

typing this, i feel weaker than ever

realizing that you will never be mine

I am happy you found someone else,

someone that makes you heart feel warm

I am happy because I know of that your someone

You will be happy with him I am sure

I shall see you from far

Just like how I see the sun

for you are my very first,

I hope I meet someone like you

that way I can be with you

even when you never knew how i felt of you.

Your truly,

Lord Denning

Specs?

Watching television seems no longer a fun thing when you have to wear your specs all day. Not that I am complaining, but it seems that way. When writings are blurred, and you squint often then you know you needs specs.

Tips for getting a specs:

• Think about your purpose first. If its more to seldom use in class only, then choose a strong a solid ones (usually the full framed ones) because they last.
• If you are to wear it casually almost half the day, the a half frame would be the best because its light on your nose and you don't feel that your wearing it.
• Never buy a frame less glass unless you want to wear it for super special occasion. It breaks down easily regardless what the optometrist tells you
• When buying the frame, please ensure your comfortable with the side frames (the ones that touches your ears). Some materials namely plastic when worn too long would cause you to have an allergy reaction. Perhaps a semi plastic or any sort of plastic that is comfortable would help
• Transition lens: well, if you can afford it go ahead. It protects your eyes from UV ray and also looks cool (LOL).
• polarized lens: are lens designed to reduce glare
• Transition glasses: the ones that change color in presence of light

So, take this in with a pinch of salt. =)

Exam Stress

Having my first A-Level exam this Monday. It Kicks off with Chemistry Paper 5 (The one with experiments).

My Fear for this exam?

Not performing well and letting my lecturers hope down.

My Target for this exam?

4A* with another Top in the World for Law.

My Motivation for this exam?

My Lecturers, Sponsors and the pride that comes with it

To Miss Angeline, Miss Sathya, Miss Tee, Miss Elsie, Mr George

Mr Norman, this is for you.

For my loving parents, I wish to see you receiving the applause.

Last papers. Do it Well.

Gotta stop blogging. =)

Welcome. Again.

After so long, I finally created another blogspot again. With a hope to maintain this for real.

Why the sudden urge?

• Exam seasons are peeking, perhaps its the stress that engulfs
• Been having problems expressing myself. I cant be talking all the time can I? Perhaps this can serve as therapeutic
• I learned many things from blogs around the world, its only right people give back to the internet community that we steal from.
• I think, I have finally had the experiences necessary to share with the world.

So, I am sure by now, you are wondering (even if your not)

Verum Dicere?

It translates from Latin to mean "speak the truth'. As I mentioned this blog is my personal psychiatric treatment. So, the only way this can work is by speaking the truth. I refused to keep my profile up to be shown to the world.

Look at the top left corner of the blog.

Meet Icarus, remember this story of the man who thought he could fly to the sun? I read this during my primary school years. It still reminds me how human tends to keep driving towards something obvious that they forget to appreciate their surrounding. A personal reminder up till today.

Lord Denning,

I am not sure where this is going to appear but he is my favourite idol. Why? the man has balls to change things many wouldnt. I doubt the English law would change without him.

For those of you whom I do share my blog with, a personal favour. Do not share my blog with anyone unless I agree to do so.

Law exclusion clauses (In case of any legal litigation) (Done by myself)

"This blog is under the private owner ship of the mentioned or the proved, any copying or other forms of duplicating, replication or other form of fraud is strictly prohibit unless a written permission is given by the owner of this blog. All information expressed or implied in this blog is of private nature, the owner will not be held liable for any corrupted fact or other opinionated discussions following the article 8 of the European Convention of Human Rights. Finally, by entering this blog you are agreeing to be silent about the very existence of this blog, breaking this would result in legal prosecution or settled through arbitration"