On Being Circle or Square

Inspired by my current experiences, I question: Would you want to be a circle or a square?

Square, an elegant shape with equal sides no matter what angle you see it from. More than that, it represents firmness and oftentimes remind me of a fort, protecting my ideals and beliefs inside . I wonder, to what extend I have been a "square" in my life.

Growing up, I've have always been thought to never compromise my values. Respect, obey, and follow was always the key elements that were constantly fed to my mind. Funny how these values often gained me recognition among my teachers. I was always to some extent (some might disagree) been an exemplar to my other peers. I remember how I would be appointed

class monitor or prefect or even tutor by my teachers every year. In fact, there has not been a year pass, that I have failed to secure such "status".

As I transitioned to my high school, my values brought me even further than I thought. I made good grades, led various clubs and was often time placed under the spotlight (that explains my craze for fame). In fact, I went a step further and often time criticized my peers who do not share the same values as me. Especially those who are deviant and often time are trouble makers. In essence, I was the guy that everyone trusted to keep everything in order.

In other words, I was a "square", trying to keep the edges perfect.

Truth is, I am bored being a square. My years of trying to be "quintessential" (Yes, that's an SAT word) did bestow me with many gifts as I mentioned. Nevertheless, it did cost me a great deal. I got attached to my endeavors. I forgot there is more to life than a perfect track record. I forgot how it felt to be a be different. Most importantly, I forgot how to let loose and don't worry too much. Simply put, I never knew how it meant to be a "circle" with no edges and sharp boundaries. An empty space where you are free to define anything; enclosed only by your greatest values and perhaps faith for some people. The great thing about being a circle it is YOUR own values and not what people expect from you.

I guess to some extent, we are all circles and squares. The only question is which one encloses the other?

I understand if it makes no sense. LOL.